I know what I want and what I want’s right here with you

Heeeeey yea! Long time no…type? Hell. BUSY. 8[

Honestly uh….crazy left and right! But hey, I got on OC for the first time since…well since school started LOL. YA. Haven’t really drawn any of my characters or used the tablet until today so I just sort of got excited. Caught up with some chums too now that things are slowing down and the school year’s coming to an end so….YA HERE. I MADE OC JUNK.

Lol I feel dirty.

P.S. Wtf Is with images getting distorted here, mang?

Hold your own, know your name and go your own way and everything will be fine

Holy crap, I’m so tired. cc; I feel bad. I’ve skipped church three weeks in a row now. I meant to go this week though! *headdesk* I had a headache that made me wanna puke when I moved sooo….yea. But ah well, next week! And LEDGE on Tuesday, of course.
Bah, it’s been a pukey two or so weeks. Nothing but stress, pain, nerves and everything else. Still kicking through though! It hasn’t been all bad, I’ll say that much. Juuuust….what IS bad is very bad and seems to be everything that I put on top of my important list. It’ll all play out though so I just gotta fight through even if it hurts. I’ve been pretty level headed for the most part considering how shaky I’ve been though…I did start crying at school though LOL. 8[; I like my group of friends though. Only a few of them are the type to go OMG WHUTS WRONG OH NOES while the rest sort of try to keep you from feeling embarrassed. They DO do the whole panic thing sometimes, but they’re clever and sort of all started doing something awkward to me so I’d laugh. Worked for the most part so yea. It’s just been Hell all over. Some of it’s just…personal and I don’t even wanna get into it until I know what’s going down, but a big issue besides that was getting robbed. All my shit. >>; Right out from under me. I looked away and then everything was gone. We all know it had to be someone that either was from off campus or wasn’t an art student because the art building people are obsessed with respecting each other’s crap and I was aware of who was around. But either way, it was just upsetting since I spent aaaalll my money on this semester and everything was going so perfect and then this happened. It’s been hard, but my aunt and a family friend said me a lot of money and Pluto’s giving me his old portfolio so I don’t have to buy a paper one. c_c-b; Other stuff just going down is just…eh…I have plans and I’m seeing it turning out very good or horrible, but if that happens, I already know what to expect.

Other stuff’s just annoying blah blah blaaaah. I wanna move out badly. So so badly. >>; It’s so hostile at home as much as I love mother-dearest. Lol Colin always says he wants our friend Kirby’s studio and honestly…if it was an option, I would so jump on it. I wish BCC had a campus actually lol. It’d probably be somewhat cheap, I guess and I wouldn’t waste all my money on gas and have to panic about driving home when staying at school or Colin’s house late….Blah, I’m just so tired. I hope things clear up soon.

But hey! I do have some nice updates too! Classes have been great for one thing. I have my teacher, David again for two of my classes which makes things so lovely. He’s such a laid back friendly guy lol. 8[ He reminds me of like…Frank or my buddy from church, John…younger one…not the crazy one. But yea, his classes have been awesome. I also have this other teacher I’ve spoken to here and there, Erik. I’ve got mixed feelings about him. He seems like that kid from a group of friends that is socially awkward and doesn’t get anything and gets angry if you laugh at him and has like…bottled rage…HE’S THE HOMESCHOOLED KID LULZ. Not really. But yea, he means well and he’s a sweet guy, but he’s so damn intense and passionate about art, it’s ridiculous. I’d probably not mind it as much if he wasn’t so strict…and it was a class I liked. It’s 3D and I hate sculpting and shit so I have little patience for it lol. But I have to admit he’s a nice guy and he’ll take any stupid question and help you with anything. He’s been helping me find my portfolio and all that just in case it’s lying around somewhere. He’s also very VERY adorable when he starts talking about art. He gets SO damn passionate and poetic and it’s just heart melting and precious. I know I’m gonna hate the class, but at least I know I can pass it. My other class is…..oh man….everything about it is sex on a platter. c___c <33333 Seriously. It’s Film class. I almost didn’t take it and probably wouldn’t have, but Colin never…ever…ever…ever shuts up about it and brings it up whenever we watch a movie and is always pointing out stupid little details about movies and saying “You’d appreciate this so much more if you took film” soooo….yea, I figured I had to take it. And damn, I’m glad I did. We have a lecture and then watch a movie. The movies are always awesome and the lectures have to be the coolest things I ever have to sit through throughout the week. There’s so much behind cameras and little details in movies you don’t even know. D8 It’s only been a couple of weeks and I’m already acting exactly like the teacher said all of us would. “By week two, your friends aren’t even going to want to watch movies with you, you’ll get so into them.” And it’s true LOL. I’m doing exactly what Colin does and noticing all these wild things. It’s pretty beautiful though. So far we’ve watched V for Vendetta and some Maltese Falcon which I had already seen throughout the years and…I must say….Hoooow did I never see V?! Really! c_______c NOMNOMNOMNOM IT WAS AMAZING. I started crying at the end though because…well…if you’ve seen it, you’d understand, but if you haven’t….the movie’s just so epic and one big rush and by the end, you feel so moved and your heart is pounding and there’s all these explosions………and then the DVD started skipping so the teacher turned it off and told us we could leave. I was heart broken all day lol. And it’s like….too big of a scene to just watch from the end. I’m gonna have to start it all over again. But uh…Like I said, I had seen the noir film, Maltese Falcon and that is always a good watch. Lol I love old black and white films. But! The best part about it…and one of the best things about the class is I’m taking it with my friend Kirby. Such a kindred spirit. <3 But LOL he was so cute during the movie. He’s never seen any noir films, nevermind this jewel of a movie so he didn’t know what to expect so through the whole movie he kept getting so ridiculously excited over everything and kept going on about how the main character, Sam was such a badass and I kept hearing him say under his breath “Like a boss!” as he normally does to badass things. I wanna start a Netflix account or get Colin to rent a bunch of old noir films and just sit Kirby in front of them since he seems to love them so much and it’s so fun watching them with him.

So yea, there’s been a few nice things happening. Some other stuff too like a new baby in the family, but I’m trying to hold in all the excitement for the time being so I don’t accidentally get excited out loud since I think my cousin’s keeping it a surprise for a little while longer. But jkfhiueg so excited. QQ

Other nice stuff going on too as well as horrible things, but let’s try to stay balanced…or lean more toward the main happy for the time being. Hopefully things become peaceful again very soon…I should probably do my homework too, shouldn’t I…? Thankfully my tool box wasn’t stolen too. <>;…

Eh…not gonna explain, but yea. I have a finished version of this with more too it, but I’m not putting anything out just yet…and I liked my little sloppy version even if it didn’t have shape yet. :’[

Oh baby, if you find I’m not the loving kind, I’ll buy you flowers, I’ll pour you wine, do anything to change your mind

jkKNHLidunfwihniehuh Why do I watch upsetting movies?! c______c; Oh that’s right, because they’re the sex, man. *cry* Still though. Raaaagh!  I finally saw all three of the Revenge movies. I got the beau to watch Battle Royale so he got me to watch his favorite Korean film…films…They were so good, but so sad. The first one was okay, the second one was fuckin’ epic and the last one was amazing, but I kind of wanted to puke up my own stomach during it because it was so heavy. I’ve always had a really strong parental mentality even when I was little and adults have always pointed it out…which is kind of…weird to tell a seven year old…but whatever. But I just don’t handle movies about a parent’s suffering too well. It was totally worth seeing though. <3___<3 And jeez, the main chick was smokin’.

Oh man, onto other news, I’m so ready for school to start. I miss it so much and I can’t wait for everything. <333 And my buddy Liz and I have a work out schedule…THAT’S RIGHT! D8< A real one! We kept talking about being work out buddies and then never did anything about it, but now we’re actually setting stuff up and it’s great. I might pull Mark in on it since he gets bad seasonal depression like I do and we had been talking about it too. It’s exciting! D8 Have other plans and goals too. The break’s been fun, but yea. I’ve had quite a few big ups and downs lately, but I think I’ve only really had one big cry this vacation….okay that’s a lie. I’ve cried almost every day because of Haiti things and stuff I hear on the news…but I’ve only cried once over my own issues. Brian had my back on it though. cc; I needed him lol. I’ve really hit a point where I hate crying over my own girly issues. I don’t like crying to begin with, but there’s worse things going on aaaand yea…But yea, things have been pretty chill!  The stuff on Haiti’s been hell though. We have people we keep in contact with there and they’ve been giving us more truth than the news has. We’re trying to put a plan into motion and I’m really hoping things start happening soon.

Aaaand to end on a…happier note than..that so I don’t have a repeat of some of my old posts >>;;;…Uh…Trips! Yea! 8D; The winter retreat’s coming up nomnomnom! Dx; I’m so excited…a little angry since I might be the only female high school teacher there though, but…I’m hoping some of the other leaders change their minds about not going. Also! BAM! Going to Florida in Maaarrrcchh! D<<< So excited about that! <3 Aaaand I’ll shut up here since I’m gonna shower and crash and have too much to talk about to fit into this the right way….

Lol How much you wanna bet I won’t finish it? I should have uploaded a finished picture–BECAUSE YES. I actually made a full painting. Maybe next time.

You are the spark of dawn, you are where I belong, you are the ache I feel in every song…

HEEEEEY! 8D Long time no see lulz? Yea. I kept forgetting to update and for a while, irl friends kept reading and going through my art and posts and crap and it just felt awkward, but eh. I miss writing. WNdbefkjhkkjz So much going ooooon. <333 I feel really good. Not like…OH BOY I R SO HAPPY N NUN OF U CAN RUIN IT. It’s just a flat out happy. Like, I feel like this is how I’ve wanted my life to be for a while. I feel like I belong with people, I’m not constantly trying to compete with people on the webz for who has the best RO idea and…blah, I don’t know. I’m active. And when things suck, they really DO suck and it’s not just me sulking over some crap online or something lame. I sound cheesy and bitchy, but I’m happy. I look back at old history of posts and other things on here and different sites and laugh so hard realizing how stupid some things were. True, some stuff still sticks in my mind, buuut I feel like it’s still pretty relevant. But yea. I just feel good. I’ve become more positive and avoid thinking of what’s pissing me off since too much is good. It’s kind of funny considering the number of people I hang around that have a lot to be happy about and still sulk. I think it’s my instinct to just become a big rainbow acid trip. But it’s cool. We got each others baaaacks, yo. And while being around downers made me more positive, I think the fact that most of them are just jackasses with little morals, it’s made me more uh…I guess back in the swing with church. Like I said, we all balance each other out LOL.

I’ve been on winter break and have been getting out a lot and…I PASSED MY CLASSES. <3____<3 Well…not math. I failed it and am trying to think of a way to tell mom. I think that had to be one of my biggest stresses this sem. I ended up skipping constantly since I’d start puking before the class or have massive attacks because it was too much. I’m kind of embarrassed, but…whatev. If I have to take math again, I’ll take a different kind. My other classes I half assed but did good so this sem, I’m gonna work extra hard! D< I wanna get all A’s and maybe B as the worst. I need to make friends with Illustrator and all of that too lol….

Anyway…Gonna try not to make this a giant post. Just showing I’m alive. I’ve been watching a lot of movies and less TV and going out a hella lot. Mostly with the BCC crew and such. 8[ <3 I love my men…and a few women…mostly all men though so I have a wall of safety when walking through Providence at 1am lolololololo. It was funny the other night when we were out. My beau looks like he could stomp your teeth in, my other friend is a fuckin Irish mofo and the other…well he’s a guy too. I don’t think he’s too scary, but I imagine he could be lol. But yea…I don’t know…I swear I wanted to talk about actual crap, but I’m just hypeeeeerrrrr and full’a love. <3 Don’t get me wrong. I’m still a big ball of crazy that senses impending doom over everything and cries almost every day….but do you really think I’ll ever change? I’m trying to chill out though. I’m not dead, my friends haven’t dropped me, my beau hasn’t dumped me and I haven’t gotten fired sooooo….yea. Gotta not worry! I still constantly fear getting fired for no reason what so ever, but then I keep getting praised and more hours so I must be doing something right. And I finally don’t expect to get dumped every time I go see the beau which I guess is good? I was so worried that sick feeling would stay lol. 8[ Now I’m more just content…AND AGAIN, I DIDN’T FAIL MY ART CLASSES! D< <3

Oh! And still workiiinnnng. Nomnomnom I’m so happy I have this job. I have my issues with a few people and some of the customers we get piss me off royally, but for the most part, I couldn’t have asked for a better first job. I made some pretty good friends in it and I see a lot of interesting people…and get to dance around for hours on end to poppy rubbish music…which we all know is what I like lul. Today was really nice. Only worked six hours and some of the people that came in…I don’t know…they just really made me smile. One of the first packs we got was a mom and dad with their two daughters that were probably like…between 10 and 13 at the most? One was more tomboyish than the other and the mom was trying to meet her half way with clothes and it was just sweet lol. The parents were so content and you could tell they really loved each other and they juuust…seemed like a happy family? Cheesy, I know. I just love seeing when couples don’t run out of love and half a tight family to shop together with and such. A cute little girl came in later that looked like Rihanna. 8[ I wanted to keep her. Her mom was trying to talk her into wearing girl clothes since she was a full out tomboy with boyish clothes and short hair, but she wanted nothing of it. She was ten and adorable. We were joking with her mom though since I grew up wearing boys clothes and she said she did the same and her daughter just rolled her eyes and wanted to get the hell out.

Okay enough rambling–OH RIGHT! I went to Ohio agaaaaaiiiiiiin! <3 My aunt’s 70th birthday. Ugh, I don’t want my aunt and uncle to keep aging. My aunt it so close to me, I can barely handle not having her in Attleboro. We had a lot of fun and I got to see relatives I haven’t seen since I was a wee lass. I managed to cry twice too. Both times over my cousin, Joe. We always called him Little Joe since there are so many Joe’s in my family and I grew up with him, but we hadn’t seen each other in years. Soooo of course when he walked in and I recognized him, I instantly started to bawl. He’s all grown up and handsome. QQ Not a little boy any more. He just laughed though. He’s matured a lot, but he’s still the obnoxious little kid I remember. He made me cry a second time by showing me the engagement ring he was giving to his girlfriend the next night…and yes, she said yes! Dx< So…HE’S GETTING MARRIED. *sob* He’s just a little older than me, but he still seems so young. It makes me feel so old too. One minute, we’re playing with slugs and the next we’re in college and getting married. The rest of the visit was pretty casual once we got past the tears. I hung out with my uncle and he put me back on Wow LOL. *headdesk* I can’t believe I’m playing it again. I feel so gross…but hey, I get to talk to my fam over it. I mostly dicked around with them and caught up with everyone’s lives….and then all the men in the family went Italian mofo on me when they found out I was dating…but the awkwardness passed fast. Everyone seems happy and content and my little cousins are growing up so fast. c___c <3 And we’re gonna go back to Ohio when the wedding happens…hopefully. QQ

OKAY I’LL SHUT UP.

LOL Sorry. 8[;; I’ve been drawing and painting a lot off the comp….and I’ve improved surprisingly….but nothing good here. Just a quick Spring Awakening doodle. Oooh Melchioooooorrrr, if only you didn’t rape Wendla and accepted your feeliiiingssss. Maybe something beautiful would have happened as you plaaanned–Yes. I’m still in love with Spring Awakening. Very much so. I want it to come back to Boston so I can relove it. I guess in a way this took skill…I was lying on my back with my knees in the air and had the tablet balancing on it as I drew and looked at the screen next to me. 8D;;;;…….

What’s in your head, in your head, zombie, zombie

Lulz Still all here! 8[ Just did a much needed clean up!

Not much going on…well…school and all that. I was supposed to go see Cave In–Yeeeaaaa, I was going to a metal show and I still find it funny…but uh…yea….Was gonna see Cave In…And instead got in a huge car accident and got sent to the hospital. Fun times! Was in a car with our friend Kirby and Colin and we were following our other friend and then some douchebag rammed us from behind and we got sandwiched. We all lived though. 8D;; Just uh…sore…yea.
Not much time to talk, but I’m heeeerrrreeee!

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