make me think that maybe I won’t die aloooone
Omnomnom Good birthday! Dx< <3333 The week itself was pretty awesome and I got to hang with all my babies. One of them keeps telling me something I’m not sure I wanna hear, but even that’s nice. I guess part of me likes hearing it, but uh…YEA ANYWAY. Everything was awesome and full of love. We had more bubble parties (and Colin fucking went through the entire vile in one day) and I got a ton of amazing photos. <3 Unfortunately there was a few issues during the week aaaand I think I’m gonna go back to looking into anxiety meds. It’s been really bad lately and my chest keeps getting tight. I was crying for a few days straight and walked out of class Thursday and told Nicole to just call me when it was over. I ended up curling up on an ugly chair until Colin took me back to his house to sleep until the class ended and I had half a mind to ask to go to the emergency room, but once I calmed down, I could breath again. <>;;;; I’ve had worse attacks, but I don’t wanna start this again. I was just happy I had so much help throughout Thursday since it was the worst that day and pretty much all better by Friday minus the tight chest. Friday of course kicked the most ass. <3 We didn’t get to go to Fire and Ice, but Grim and Nicole took me out and we got noms and went shopping. Nicole was nice about the fact that the plans got so messed up and said she’d take me another time. ;_; And then later on that night, I drove to Fall River and brought Colin to see WTWTA finally and was happy to see he loved it as much as I did. And then we went to fuckin’ Al Mac’s at midniiiight! D8< Best place to eat, man. I can’t put my finger on it, but eating there in the middle of the night….yea…I don’t know, but it’s so much cooler than in the morning. Lol It felt like a very epic beginning to a long road trip that we didn’t have the balls to take. God, it’d be so nice to go through with it though. Just upping and leaving for a bit and maybe trying to get to New York or just somewhere cool. cc; Maybe during break and with more friends since I think we’ve all wanted to have a road trip since like….before summer, yea?
Anyway, Saturday kind of sucked since I didn’t get to do anything and got nothing done, work-wise. Sunday has been awesome though since I went and saw Fiddler on the Roof with Uncle Lou and the others. <333 I love seeing him. QQ We obsessed over Spring Awakening and all that and I told him I’d lend him Benjamin Button since it’s a movie everyone has to see. But yea, it’s been a great birthday. I’m kind of pissed about one thing and I wanna confront it eventually, but whatever for now. I just hate seeing people take bad turns and I don’t like the alienation.
OH! AND I GOT A JOB. YES. FINALLY. Lol, I hate talking religious on here or around anywhere where friends that bash me will see, but daaaamn behold the powah o’ prayer. c___c; That job like….had no intention of taking me for a fucking season, nevermind for good. First they didn’t want me and then they said maybe for Christmas and then the chick was saying I wouldn’t get hired for anything past Christmas since there was no room and she pretty much told me I didn’t get the job as I was leaving. But after all that, I’m fuckin’ full time staff and she’s letting me work the schedule to my will! Seriously man, this is what I needed. Especially since now I’m on the adult list for Christmas in my family and have to do Secret Santa and all that.
LNJjdhehehrio So many things I wanna do. I’ve been playing Nation Red and it’s making me feel all badass. Now I wanna go see Zombieland again. D<;; The game fuckin’ makes me feel like Tallahassee. But yea, I wanna do stuff. I miss hanging with my best friend and I miss LEDGE so I need time with them both. Also wanna make time for more just…yea. Lol School keeps me there till dark. ;__; I wanna try and go places with the crew more.
Wow I’m tired. Lol Useless rambling.



