My Own Interpretation

I’m hooooooooome! D8
LOL so much for coming home and getting a good night’s sleep, huh? Early bird gets the worm, motha fucka!

Anyway, I had an awesome time. I almost wanted to cry when it was time to leave, but then Chaz would have technically won which would have been bad. D< But yea, MA is already depressing me LOL. I step outside and it’s freezing. Why can’t we have deadly heat too!? Everything was awesome. I loved everything. Seriously. c___c I’d totally stay there if I could. I got some cool pictures that I wanna upload and a stuffed animal beluga whale that everyone’s calling a giant sperm. QQ I still think it’s adorable. WE WENT TO SEA WORLD! sdkjfhliuyweuyfliuui Dream come true, baby! Damn, everything was so fun. Met all of Mina’s…awesome friends. We’ll call them awesome. They made me lul and I miss them along with everyone/everything else. 8[ AND HEY! I like flying! It wasn’t bad at all. I had so much fun and was like a little kid in the car the whole way. I pointed at every fucking cloud and building all OMGLOOKITTHATRAVEN!!!! But she was a good sport and we were obnoxious all the time. 8D Lol and we sang the Spaghetti Cat song on the way to one of our planes and an older lady walking in front of us turned and knew what we were singing and it was awesome, man. I think the only downer I still have of flying is like….motion sickness. I had to sit in the back seat a lot this week which made me dizzy as shit, but I kept it to myself so no one will know. D<…yea. But flying was cool.

Damn, I’m in such a good mood. I wish we could have stayed longer. QQ And I went to SONIC OMG. Yea, not too amazing, but it’s SONIC, man!!!! Never been to one and now I have! 8D; It’s a fast food place…with no inside to it. Weird. And and and we went to like……zdjkfhjk everywhere! Dx It was so fun! And I saw Star Trek and went to San Antonio! The water walk…thing was kind of lame, but of course, I had a ball and took a lot of pictures. We went to Dick’s and Reven said there’s one in Boston so now I wanna work there LOL. It’s like….a restaurant…where the waiters intentionally treat their customers like shit. As we were walking in, one of the staff glared and said “What the hell do you want?” and closed the door on us! xD It was great. And you get super hats with crude notes on them. Me, Raven and Mina got lovely ones such as “I put more balls on my nose than a circus seal” or something and “My thong has a skid mark” and then the waiter just left Chaz out of pity, but then came back with a hat for him that said “Pimpin’ ain’t easy” on it. The place was so damn awesome. Oh! And they throw napkins and shit at you and don’t care if you throw things at them. xD <3 Jeez, seriously…everything made me happy. Eeeeverythiiiing. D< And I didn’t get any sun burns! How that happened, no one will ever know.

And now I’m home, cold and miss the little yippy dogs and hateful cat. QQ Only Benny really cared that I was home and Stinky is starting to catch on. Mom was fine and then randomly got all emotional on me and bitched and went to bed, but whatever. I won’t stay pissy about that. Honestly, the only bad thing right now? It’s a detail I’m gonna…handle?! That’s right! D< It’s small and may include arguing, but it’s been driving me crazy for a few days now so yea. But it’s still hardly anything. It’s part of the “forever” issue so I’m good. I wish I could go back to Texas right now though. ;___; That house and…state is heaven. KJWDFHIWUluwhfuh Dx!!! I’m too scatter brained to even get into everything! But it was awesome! (if you…haven’t caught on yet)

Things look like they’re gonna mostly stay good too. Thoooouuuugh…..after being informed of a big detail of Transformers…….fuck it. Not gonna see it. >>;;;;;;; Noooot worth it. BUT! Plenty of movies coming up! And I’m gonna see Jason Mraz! Dx FINALLYYYY! *sobsoblove* I’m sosososo excited! I’m going alone though. QQ But it’s Jason Mraz so it’s okay! I’m also gonna go see The Killers with Frank and Raven! Dx More love! There’s some other concerts coming up and I’m hoping to go to some of them. I’m not paying for Mraz or The Killers and have good seats for both so no stress there. ;D Also, Lexi and Phil’s wedding and….other…stuff and….stuff….too much to list! But a lot of fun and I wanna go work for my cousin Danny for the rest of the summer so make an honest buck. >[ And I’m still walkin’ on air about the dumb little thing and it ain’t going away. <3

Lol rambles mean I’m tired……what should I do….?

If you’re not expecting Spring Awakening shit from me by now, you’re retarded. ;[ Lol I drew a whole bunch of Ilse and Moritz as soon as I got home (and adore drawing Moritz’s hair that never makes sense LOL) and I’m only posting a piece of shit since nothing’s done.

Texas, baby! I’ll be back after the 10th! <3

Lol Well yesterday was awesome. Today sucked major balls. From beginning to end.
Lol…Yikes, I can’t wait any longer for this trip. I want out of here for a while. I wish I could move out while I’m at it. Everything was fucking annoying and I felt like blowing my brains out just to tune out mother dearests constant screaming. And of course it hasn’t stopped being annoying and shit-tastic. Lol I’m so tired.

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On a good note? Got some new clothes and a had nice dinner? :’D; Yea…day was still horrible. Thank god it’s finally here. Just finish getting ready tomorrow and the next day, I’m out of here.

Lol that last line seems kind of backhanded if you think about it, but who listens to dance lyrics anyway!?

kjoijejoigueo Good–……Weird–…….It’s been a week (or so)! I’ll give ya that! Very bittersweet. Good things are VERY good and bad things make me wanna stick my stongue in an electical socket. :’D;;;; The stress has been horrible, but for once, the good really HAS been out weighing it. Not all the time, but….really, when has it ever been THAT good for me? But honestly, I’m really content right now. Always expect something to go wrong, but for now, I’m really content. It’s very little things too that just pop up in my head or just during the day and make things chill. Just like little fun-packs of something super awesome happening…sort…of…Really, I don’t know if this will be a rant or a ramble or both. 8[
But yea, today was a very bittersweet day. The day and schedule itself was awesome and I had so much fun, but then we have mommy dearest that brings things dooown doooown doooown. But really, I’m beyond being angry or anything and now I’m just more exhausted and frustrated. There really isn’t anything I can do, but I’d like a break. >>;; Lol I wish I could just move out while planning this trip, but that won’t happen. But I WILL be gone for over a week in just a few days. I’m still so excited it’s really happening. Just gonna finish the packing and everything and go to Savers. *gagpuke* And today was really nice. I got to hang out with the crew and Genesis and Frank both came around too and we all dicked around the……fair….whatever the hell it was going on. It was entertaining either way. We had a dress up montage to gay music after in Ellies with their shitty, tacky hand-me-downs and that was fabuu. Huwah huwah <3___<3 The day minus mother and her endless rage was great. And then I got to play PSO when I got home and our characters hit the next dungeon. 8D *shot* Wow that’s sad that, that’s a highlight. Normal people go to bed or something and I get on some old MMO. But it was my first so it’ll always be my favorite. I wanna get to the motha fuckin’ ruins, bitch!

*cough* Buuut now I’m sort of feeling pathetic so moving on! <>; I’m in a movie rush though I’m not sure how much better that is. I’m back to watching a lot of movies. My cousin gave me his DVDs, I still wanna see Transformers 2 even though Ashley said it sucked, and her and Frank are gonna see Star Trek again so I can see it too while it’s still on the big screen since it seems like….I don’t know. It’s like the Dark Knight. If you don’t see it there once or on a giant plasma screen, it’s just not the same….I just hope I end up liking it lol. <>; But I’m eager. Gonna go once I’m home from Texas. LOL And last night, I watched Battle Royale. <3___<3 I still ain’t gonna see Suicide Club, but BR was reeeaaally good. My ideal thriller movie. LOL I cried so many times through it and laughed at every drop of the black humor. I loved the characters and I cried when the little tech-geeks stuck with each other to the end. TT *sob* I might watch the sequal, but either way, I adored the first one. Very disturbing and creative, just the way I like it. D< The Lighthouse scene had to be one of my favorite parts though. I love situations where the killer is the only one that doesn’t get their hands dirty. Buuut no spoilers…but it was great. It made me wanna watch other thrillers I like. I already have plans to watch Sleepy Hollow again with Sei and whoever else and I wanna rewatch The Orphanage and Pan’s Lab and…well non-thrillers too. Just movies. They’re fun. And I treasure the DVDs my cousin gave me LOL. God, I love my cousins so much. They’re like my big brothers. I just love how the youngest one still tries to keep that bond with me since he was always like…the coolest thing on the planet. *snort* I don’t think they know how to handle me now that I don’t act like such a little brother………..well some of them. And then we have Paul who still sits on me and crushes my ribs lol. :[ <3 Gotta love them all. But I just thought it was sweet and cute that I got to keep Stephen’s DVDs.

Blaaah rambles, this was all rambles lol. :[ I’m in a good mood. Little something has me extra bubbly, but I ain’t getting into it. <3 I’m just excited about too much..My confidence has been pretty rocky lately surprisingly, but..eh. I don’t know. I’m trying to just shove my way through. It’ll catch up to me, but I sort of handled the last issue the minute it happened and surprisingly someone that normally brings my gloom made it better. Go figure lol. But yea, I’m just in a good mood. But as weird as it is and while I feel like I can’t sleep, I’m really tired so woah! I might eventually fall asleep tonight. Not gonna even worry if there was something I wanted to rant about. Too much is making me happy right now. *snort*

Lol considering how much I’ve been doodling lately, I…don’t really have anything to show at the moment. I hope I get some of my stuff done before I leave. D; But I have a Lunarian obsession so it’s all good.

adhuwhuifh Was such a good daaaay! Dx <3 Very good! LOL It was cheesy weather-wise. *wiggle*

I got my new phone and it’s sexy and all set (and I’m gonna have a new number, but I’ll give it to anyone that wants it, of course) and I bought the original story of Spring Awakening. <33333 No clue when it’s getting to my house, but I’m excited to read it. It’s the story book, not the original script. The original Spring Awakening was just a script like how you’d read something of Shakespeare’s, but a book was made after and it’s pretty much the same so eh. Either way, both the original books have more than the show. A lot was left out and I’m curious about the “mysterious masked man” and all that. Melchior has inner conflicts lololo. :[ But yea, you get it…I’m excited.

ANYWAY! The best part of the day though! We had the Relay for Life! <3 I’ve been doing it for a few years now so I always look forward to it. It’s this big walk that saves up money to help support cancer research. Frank came with us this year so it kept things lively. LOL It was so damn cheesy. The whole day had been gross and rainy and we were all worried it’d pour by the time the relay started, but as we were driving, it cleared up a little and did some on and off rain. By the time things got moving, sweatshirts were off and then when the cancer survivors did their big walk, the sun just flat-out came out and the rain was gone. 8D…Yea, it was nice. LOL But! The best part to that? Soon after, a huuuugeass rainbow appeared over the track. It was so damn gay, but fitting. We got some pictures of it. xD; It all just went too perfectly like a really bad movie. The rest of the walk was really fun and when it got dark and all the candels in the decorated bags got lit, the whole place just lit up like nobody’s business. >/ Like…more than usual. We had a good year. Not a lot of bags set on fire and…yea, things just went perfect. And of course, one of the best parts was the fact that the annoying harpies weren’t there. :’D….Yea…I loved that. All went really well.

And I’m having major sleep issues for someone that has an even busier day today. LOL Today I’m working with AIDS support. Go me.; It’ll be fun setting everything up though. The event’s gonna be huuuuge once it happens. I’m just helping set it up. It’s gonna be going on for a few weeks though so Frank (hopfully Raven D<<<!! HINT), and I are gonna try to go to it when all of us are free. It’s supposed to be really heavy, but amazing. cc Not sure how to explain until I see it, but I’m excited. I feel like such a do-gooder. *snort* I guess that’s not a bad thing though. Anyway! Gonna try to sleep a little before getting back up.

My posts are really long lately. I got a lot of love in me lulz. 8[ <3

Yaaaay I found my camera! I’m so glad. QQ;; I have videos and pictures of Cuddles on it. I’d be heart broken if I lost them. My phone should be coming soon too. *wiggle*

Dull day, but little dumb things made me happy. <3 Remember that little stupid thing that kept me happy for days on end one time? Happened again. 8D Only not as dumb of a situation this time. Lol, I’m happy though. I feel a little less sick today so whatever I had is going away. And apparently my taste in food has finally matured. I had nothing to eat so I brought I can of beefaroni with me…and it tastes like ass. Same with kiddy soups. Lol I never though I’d see the day when I hate kid foods. That’s not bad though. :’D;; Guess it keeps me from living off it all now.

saljfdwo I’m in such a good mood today. So many plans going on. Friday’s (hopefully, unless it pours) the Relay for Life. I’ve been doing it every year since forever so I always get excited to go to it and sometimes I see people there I haven’t seen in years. 8[ And this year…None of mom’s annoying buddies are gonna be there. Yaaaaay. 8D God, they’re so annoying and they all laugh like harpies. They’re the steriotypical group you see in movies. Mom doesn’t even like most of them, but she’s known them a long time. And along with that, Frank’s gonna come with us this year so that’ll be fun. I don’t like being alone. QQ So I’m excited about that. And theeeeen…I’m not sure if this is before or after Texas (go me!), but my friends are getting married. Dx <3 I’m so damn excited about that. Phil and Lexi. I love them both so much. Lol they’re gonna be so cute. Another good reason to have my camera around. And of course…Texas! And then in September, I’m gonna see The Killers with Raven and Frank and I’ve wanted to see them in concert forever. cc <3 Now to just get Spoon down here again….I’ll see them one day. I don’t care if Brit Daniel’s 70 and sounds like he’s dying, I WILL see them one day! OTL…

Only real pain in the ass today?…Well…a literal one. We got a free computer chair and mom trashed the old one since it’s gross…but it was comfortable. This one’s so uncomfortable. It’s all stiff and over stuffed and doesn’t go low enough so your legs press up against the bottom of the desk. And it feels like I’m gonna fall off. ~~; She flipped out when I said I didn’t like it and then threw a tantrum when she didn’t like it either….and then threw the other chair out…I don’t get it. I’ll save up to buy a nice chair though. Once everything else is out of the way.

Lol….Not much of an update. Gotta shower and get ready for the usual night of chillun watching. D;

Lol Ten second drawing. I just didn’t want another update with no doodle. Spring Awakening lol. 8D Thought you were getting off that easy?! Lol I feel like a fag for using the Steffi D design. Whatev.

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Lol I think I made Benny stir crazy. I’ve been dead all day and not very alert. Lol, no it isn’t depression. I just haven’t felt good. Maybe that time o’ the month is coming. God, I hope not. The Relay for Life is Friday. Dx< I’m already gonna be alone, I don’t wanna be alone and cramped lol. But today’s been a pain. Every time I did something, it’d take me a long time to really get it done and then I ended up falling asleep when I sat down for a second and then I ended up feeling too shitty to go to the movies. I really wanted to see Up, but I’m not like…completely heart broken since I always get super insecure when I know I’ll be in public while watching a movie that’ll make me cry LOL. But I’ll watch it online or something. There were other movies I wanted to see on the big screen that I didn’t get to see so those are bigger losses to me. I’m gonna be catching up on the Harry Potter movies too since I wanna go see the new one in theaters when it’s out. :[ The last one I saw was like….part three. Lol 8D…; I stopped reading them around part 2, but I may continue someday. I love the story, but her writing is so…yea. But it’s easy so hey. But the movies are awesome so I’m excited. Shit! And I just realized while writing this that I have to watch Spiderman part 2 and 3. cc; Lol so many movies. My cousin lent them to me just so I could finish. I know the third one is complete and utter ass, buuut…eh. I think a part four is coming out too and I hope so, so they can save their asses. One movie I plan on seeing even if I have to go all alone is Transformers 2. D< When the first one came out, I thought it’d be rediculous and then ended up loving it and regretting I didn’t go to the movies to see it so this time I will. I’ve never been big on TV, but movies are fun and don’t take all your time to keep up with. <3 Though video games do that more often, but hey.

Considering how assy my body feels today, I’m doing good. My eating habits have changed a little and I think I might follow my aunt and join Weight Watchers maybe…No I don’t think I’m fat. >>; My problem is I don’t eat and when I do, it’s usually like….soup. When I go to the store, all I buy is soup, water and Gatoraid. I’m back to drinking soda, but I really only drink a can and I don’t start shaking if I go days without soda any more lol. It’s just a though, y’know? I’ve been a lot more active these days so why not also get some more energy? D;

Lol so yesterday was my last driving lesson and I got the same crazy bitch…And then tried to drive with my mom since I have to practice before I get my license…and she flipped out. I’m hoping I can pass the test, but I need the practice. And how the hell am I supposed to drive my mom to the train station when the time comes if she’s gonna gasp every time I take a turn? Eugh…And everyone that promises to help doesn’t soooo…I’m just gonna really have to hope I don’t fail. :[; I’m tempted to just ask one of my friends to help me, but most of them will either say no or they drive their parent’s cars. Ah well. But I’m glad the lessons are over. Yesterday was a bad day and that didn’t help, but thankfully going to Ledge cheered me up as it always does and it made the rest of my night awesome. Our only problem the whole night was finding my camera…which we can’t find still. I’m getting worried since I need it for Friday and I wanna bring it to Texas. ~~;;;; I hope it’s around here. We’ll find it.

And past the camera, I really need to finish my portfolio and figure out what’s happening with college. I have my classes set up and everything, but I need to talk to Mass Art. Lol, I’m so angry I have to go through another year of BCC. <>;; Not even getting a degree. </3 Eh…I’ve stopped crying though. Gonna have to suffer. Just gotta handle this one step at a time. At least I have my paints and everything and things will go well even if I take the harder road. So even that’s not worrying me too much until I take the next step.

Oh and a random note while I’m not ranting? I got me a new phone. :[ Well…not really new, but…it’s new to me? We got it free for going on to my mom’s network. She split everything with me since she thinks if I go to Texas with a shitty pre-paid minute phone, I’ll die or something…but I’m okay with that. 8D I hate my phone so anything different is nice. Only down side is I have to pay for texting, but it’s really cheap.

Aaand no new drawings. D; I’m not in a rut or anything. Just haven’t been drawing. I wanna adopt a color though so I’ll get to that…wow. Long post that had actual subjects AND no real rant. I like being mellow. LOL I bet any money something bad will happen today, but I’m good for now. Just…have to go back to looking for my camera. >>;

Eugh…bad day, bitchy teacher, annoying shit. I’m home and feel worse and people are making it even worse. Still bummed, but the day itself just blew and I couldn’t wake up this morning.

One more class to go at least. Hopefully I get a better teacher tomorrow. Ugh…I still have to do extra observation hours. FML I hate sitting in the back seat of cars. It makes me so damn dizzy.

Still kind of bothered by something that’s probably always bothering me (lol..) but whatever. I don’t think it’ll ever not bother me and it’s really bugging me today. Whatever though.

Bad mood and no new drawings. Here have a video to get your lols. No, it’s not Spring Awakening related past the actor lol.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cMr7IlH8D0k&feature=channel_page

More for the fruit lovers lololo

Eh…So-so…I had a pretty good day so I’m content for the most part. I hung out at Raven’s pretty much all day and just chilled which was a first in a while since I’ve had a busy week. It was nice just chilling and finally getting some time to talk and watch TV…and play with a vicious puppy. And I got me a bathing suit so hey! :[ Pretty awesome! It’s cute too even if my shape is awkward. But I still really like it.

The day went good and my driving will be done on Tuesday and then I’ll finally go for my license. I hope I pass. It’ll keep me happy. I’m feeling blah now, but it’s over just…dumb things. I’m trying to be above it. A good friend of mine is moving away which kind of made me a little weepy, but I’ll talk to him about it. I feel like he avoided telling me. I understand, but…yea. I just get sad when friends move away and especially when it’s people I warm up to fast. That and….eh….my left out feeling has been more proved lately…that it’s not in my head, I mean. It really hurts, but whatever. ~~; It just upsets me that I’ve bent over backwards for people to keep them and their characters out of rocks and hard places and then….yea……one way street. This is why I never make my own plots and dramas unless someone else is affected as well so I can focus on them. Not cool enough, but it hurts more when I’m agreed with silently. Eugh…makes me happy that I do have my small group of friends that are always there. <3 They put up with a lot so I appreciate them. I just have to suck it up. I’m actually pretty content for the most part with it all, but you know. I have my few close friends that listen to me and always wanna rp with me which makes me lucky so hey….chin up! D< And hey! Texas soon! Fuck computers! I’m gonna be on a BO–PLANE. My nerves about the plane were actually calmed quite a bit today too. I MAY NOT TAKE CHILL PILLS. 8[;

EDIT: And as  a side note? I think I’m still addicted to Plants vs. Zombies even after beating it. :’D…;

Still listening to Spring Awakening, bitcheeessss! <3 D<<<< Keeps me happy no matter what!

Lol ;_; Been listening to nothing, but my Spring Awakening soundtrack. Lol….I noticed someone on the soundtrack sounds…like Danny Gokey. Now I want him to sing ‘Touch Me’ :[…That’d be adorable.

But anyway lol…Didn’t come to fan girl more about my teen hormones musical. :’D; I promise. Stress…Much stress. I’m happy that things are officially looking good for Texas. I kept having a bad feeling in my gut…though now I make myself so nervous that I could cry when thinking about the plane…but I can do it. God, it’s scaring me though. I haven’t been on a plane except to Florida when I was barely two. Only thing I remember about it is being so fucking confused that I couldn’t see the ground like how cartoon characters can when they’re on planes. (Shut up.) Lol I’m afraid of everything hurting me. Nooot that it’ll stop me, but sdfiusdhie. Dx; I wish I could just take a train. QQ;

Things have been….weird. I’m not even…sure how to explain weird. Not good, but…can I say it’s bad? I can see some rage slowly pushing out of a few people aaand…wow, how to handle it? One of them, I couldn’t care less about, but…Eh, I guess it makes no sense without an explanation which I ain’t giving. But it’s been making me feel sick since I’m worried about just…the situation in general. I hope it doesn’t ruin anything and things become peaceful before they get bad. <>; It never really bothered me until I saw a friend finally make me realize how much it’s hurting them and they finally exploded a little, but I tend to over think things so I’m just…gonna see. I’ve gotta get better with reading body language too lol…

Moving on to the main stress? Last night was a living hell. Hell right down to the annoying little pitchfork and flames and gaping hole in the ground….Okay, over dramatic, but it was bad. My uncle had gone in for open heart surgery yesterday and it was supposed to take like…two hours? Maybe three?….He was in surgery for ten fucking hours. Everytime something was taken care of, something else went wrong and he had these heart problems no one knew about. And then they were worried he’d have a stroke or start bleeding out again. And the best part of all this was the fact that even after three hours, they gave NO explanation to my family and just let them in the waiting room. >_> The entire time. Ten hours later, we were told everything. And what made things worse was after the hell of a surgery he went through, he was in bed and they had him strapped down and hooked up to a tube and he was supposed to stay asleep…he woke up and kind of panicked. They put him back out, but…eugh. ~~; What a day. And then other things happened, but I don’t know if it’s right to talk about it until I find out what happens. Wasn’t part of the surgery, but it’s family things. Waaas not fun. Thankfully, he’s doing good today and is awake. He’s restless, but they’re gonna let him sit up soon. I wish I could visit just to make sure he’s doing good.

Bleh too many stressful things going on. cc;;;; Probably don’t wanna list everything.

O-On a brighter note? :’D; Gotta do some more driving lessons today. Apparently I’m calming down. (How is that bright news?) I wanna work more on parking, but I’m glad things are getting easier. There was a cute artsy kid in the car with me yesterday. LOL He cracked me up. I miss him. And then he was all “WOAH D8″ when he found out I’m older than him. Gotta love the fun people. And…uh…I tried a new game. Me and Frank were gonna play Atlantica and I was all excited since it’s pretty as shit with cool fighting and Mina was playing it too. QQ I was gonna have a full party to fight with….and then it raped my computer…so gotta find a new game! I don’t get how that raped my computer, but WOW didn’t. WOW worked just fine when I had it. >>; But whatev.

Oookay now I’m just babbling on. Gonna shower and get ready.