My Own Interpretation

Hazzah! Things have been clearing up. Things got pretty bad, but yea. I haven’t been handling my cat dying too well, but everyone’s been helping me along. It happened during spring break so I got to have some alone time and kept finding things to get it off my mind. Got to meet another online friend and meet a…non-online friend and both were fun peeps.

And hey, might be getting a job. cc;;; I hope. I need it. I refuse to let the Texas plans for this summer go bad. I can pull it off, I think….I hope so. Money’s always crazy.

Gonna try not to stress. I stress too much and my paranoia’s fuckin’ crazy. But hey! Working on it. It was going down, but it’s kind of back up thanks to…a few things. Some are just because of someone not worth thinking of any more and the others are just typical. My friend’s still sick and he’s getting worse. He quit the group and his son’s a douche. He’s a big stress…blah, I don’t even have the energy to rant.

And uh…yea! The lock-in was a success! And I get to teach my own lesson during the Ledge classes. I’m excited and I’m coming to terms with someone in it. I fucking hurt my should during the lock-in somehow and I’ve had a headache since. Noooo clue what’s wrong with it, but I want it to go away soon.

…You know, I think I had a point when I started this. Where did it go? Lol, oh well! Maybe next time. :’D;;; Just showing that I ain’t dead!

Don’t even ask.

Got noooo sleep last night. cc; I feel sick today. And shit’s just….still shit. Nothing’s really been too great. I guess today’s been fun. We added a new friend to the group…er….or my friend’s…group?…I’m not sure as I count as part of the gang or if I just roll with it…Anyway, there’s a new friend in. I’m really glad we’ve been finally making some friends at college. ~~; It’s been so dead. But hey! Two people are pretty cool and they don’t think we’re weird in a bad way! That’s always awesome. One of them had a faint spell and split her head open in the middle of a class. Her reaction’s always pretty priceless lol. The other one’s just cool and never creeped out. *snort* And hey, one whole class I don’t mind! Thank God since it’s so long. >_>; Geology’s not too bad, but no one talks and it’s boring and…art makes me wanna cut.

Hey wow, started on a bright note! Yea…aside from that, no. Still depressed and blah. I feel so second rate lately in general. At LEDGE, with my online and irl friends, with Eos…yea, just about everything. And it figures one friendship that seemed so freakishly perfect wasn’t at all, but me and someone else are coping. ~~; Just frustrating. Blah, maybe I just feel lonely. I feel so out of the loop with all my friends. I’m trying to only be gloomy on here though and not TO anyone since that’s…yea. >>; And with LEDGE…ugh. I joined a new group for college students and one of the guy’s is a little older than me and leads the LEDGE class in the morning and he takes me seriously so maybe I’ll get some respect some day. I’m just getting really tired of having to deal with being treated like a kid when I work just as hard as the others. Aaaand Eos….bleh. I almost feel like quitting sometimes, but I still like it. ~~; I think I’m just taking out something else on Eos, but it’s still frustrating. I feel like lately, I’ve hit the bottom of the totem pole. And friends make plans with me and they suddenly change because of loss of interest or whatever else. Eh, it’ll get better though. If not, I still have my small talk rps and I don’t mind those since I get to play with my buddies.

Aaand of course the daddy of them all? Cuddles is old and dying! Yea, I knew it’d happen some day. Can I still be unhappy about it without being told it’s gonna happen or this is why it’s hard to have pets? I’m just blue about it. She seems pretty content though so I’ll just try to keep her happy until we go to the vet and hope she doesn’t have to get put down. ~~;;;;

Oookay I need to lie down before I tip over. Maybe I’ll feel more lively after a nap and a movie. We’re gonna see a movie later. Awesome possum.