Lol ;_; Been listening to nothing, but my Spring Awakening soundtrack. Lol….I noticed someone on the soundtrack sounds…like Danny Gokey. Now I want him to sing ‘Touch Me’ :[…That’d be adorable.
But anyway lol…Didn’t come to fan girl more about my teen hormones musical. :’D; I promise. Stress…Much stress. I’m happy that things are officially looking good for Texas. I kept having a bad feeling in my gut…though now I make myself so nervous that I could cry when thinking about the plane…but I can do it. God, it’s scaring me though. I haven’t been on a plane except to Florida when I was barely two. Only thing I remember about it is being so fucking confused that I couldn’t see the ground like how cartoon characters can when they’re on planes. (Shut up.) Lol I’m afraid of everything hurting me. Nooot that it’ll stop me, but sdfiusdhie. Dx; I wish I could just take a train. QQ;
Things have been….weird. I’m not even…sure how to explain weird. Not good, but…can I say it’s bad? I can see some rage slowly pushing out of a few people aaand…wow, how to handle it? One of them, I couldn’t care less about, but…Eh, I guess it makes no sense without an explanation which I ain’t giving. But it’s been making me feel sick since I’m worried about just…the situation in general. I hope it doesn’t ruin anything and things become peaceful before they get bad. <>; It never really bothered me until I saw a friend finally make me realize how much it’s hurting them and they finally exploded a little, but I tend to over think things so I’m just…gonna see. I’ve gotta get better with reading body language too lol…
Moving on to the main stress? Last night was a living hell. Hell right down to the annoying little pitchfork and flames and gaping hole in the ground….Okay, over dramatic, but it was bad. My uncle had gone in for open heart surgery yesterday and it was supposed to take like…two hours? Maybe three?….He was in surgery for ten fucking hours. Everytime something was taken care of, something else went wrong and he had these heart problems no one knew about. And then they were worried he’d have a stroke or start bleeding out again. And the best part of all this was the fact that even after three hours, they gave NO explanation to my family and just let them in the waiting room. >_> The entire time. Ten hours later, we were told everything. And what made things worse was after the hell of a surgery he went through, he was in bed and they had him strapped down and hooked up to a tube and he was supposed to stay asleep…he woke up and kind of panicked. They put him back out, but…eugh. ~~; What a day. And then other things happened, but I don’t know if it’s right to talk about it until I find out what happens. Wasn’t part of the surgery, but it’s family things. Waaas not fun. Thankfully, he’s doing good today and is awake. He’s restless, but they’re gonna let him sit up soon. I wish I could visit just to make sure he’s doing good.
Bleh too many stressful things going on. cc;;;; Probably don’t wanna list everything.
O-On a brighter note? :’D; Gotta do some more driving lessons today. Apparently I’m calming down. (How is that bright news?) I wanna work more on parking, but I’m glad things are getting easier. There was a cute artsy kid in the car with me yesterday. LOL He cracked me up. I miss him. And then he was all “WOAH D8″ when he found out I’m older than him. Gotta love the fun people. And…uh…I tried a new game. Me and Frank were gonna play Atlantica and I was all excited since it’s pretty as shit with cool fighting and Mina was playing it too. QQ I was gonna have a full party to fight with….and then it raped my computer…so gotta find a new game! I don’t get how that raped my computer, but WOW didn’t. WOW worked just fine when I had it. >>; But whatev.
Oookay now I’m just babbling on. Gonna shower and get ready.
