My Own Interpretation

Lol I actually thought I’d be writing something a bit more cheerful on my next update. :[ Cheerful, my ass.

So yea, everything still sucks. Nothing new so why vent more about it? Things haven’t changed much at all minus things sort of being calm. If anything, I guess things could be considered good if you push aside the illness, misery, poverty, depression and everything else lol. That’s not sarcasm either. Tomorrow’s a big day. Gotta get everything in order for Phil and Lexi’s wedding and then I’m going to see Jason Mraz so I’m excited about it. And then after the concert, I’m going to hang out with belugas so yea, things have been kind of mellow and gave me some stuff to smile about.

See? There’s some cheer. Cool, I did it. Lol, I’ve been cheerful most of the day too from all of that until you know who came home. Lol, I was actually kind of shocked I’ve been so content lately. I haven’t really eaten in a while and I was happy since I thought we were getting food tonight too….Lol….I honestly don’t even know how to rant tonight. It’s just been…well….ridiculous as always. Had to deal with the drama llama and then accidentally vented to someone I’ve been trying to give a break and ended up feeling bad about it after. Just kind of annoyed that I’m back to feeling miserable so fast. I hate not being allowed to get depressed, but then having to clean up everyone else’s crocodile tears. And I can’t say anything right. Lol and this just sounds bitchy, but I’m so pissed I don’t get a nice dinner tonight. I’m so hungry I feel like puking and yet I’m still angry that we have SHIT food. I know beggers can’t be choosers, but…yea. And I don’t get how I keep being given these foods that I specifically say taste like shit or make me throw up yet she keeps buying them. Honestly, I’m not being like…expensive taste. I wish I had a fucking BAGEL instead of cardboard tasting chicken is all. Hell, I probably wouldn’t even be pissed about it if I didn’t just have to sit through a month’s worth of drama in a single hour while holding back any negative reactions to clean up the ‘grown up’s’ sobbing. Lol I really sound like a bitch tonight. I’m just pissed and tired. I’d feel a lot worse if I wasn’t always the one doing this shit. I thought the parents were supposed to offer their shoulder and shit, not the other way around. People always say she’s horrible because I bitch about her, but she IS a good person. Just….ridiculous. I just wish she didn’t reverse anything I ever feel or say onto her. I’m not allowed to come home crying or throw up from depression or anxiety or even be in a bad mood or I get in trouble for it. She can do all of that and I’m the bad guy if I’m not there talking her through it. I guess not everyone’s cut out for it, but…eh. Maybe if I had someone to do it for me and put an arm around my shoulder, but I have very low bonds with people when it comes to that. I do it for them but not back sooo….yea. Sometimes it just tires me out. I’m not crying over it, just….pissed lol.

I probably sound extra bitter right now. I’m barely making any sense. I just needed something to senselessly vent into. Sorry to my possibly two readers lololo. FML. This is gonna be a miserable night. Go figure right after I got so happy I didn’t have to babysit tonight lol.

Sorry, haven’t been drawing much. Nothing comes out right.

Fuck my life. –;

I’m backed into a corner on dropping out for a year. Nothing’s gotten better. I don’t feel any better. And there’s fucking nothing I feel like I can do these days. I’m fucking tired and fed up and I feel like I’m all by myself.

I’m back to that super awesome feeling where I’m too fucking depressed to get up which pretty much was my day. I feel like I’m never in control of anything. Ugh….fuck……I’m so tired. If we’re in such a fucking bad place right now, how is spending hundreds on books and sending me into roaring traffic going to make things better? I’m not even allowed to mention being unhappy around here or I’m the cause of the fucking teenager in the middle aged woman’s body hating her life and wanting out. And god forbid I ever get depressed. She puts me down worse if I let her know and fucking got angry when I puked from getting too anxious. ~~;

And of course, nothing else in life’s better. I’m probably gonna get counted out from the rest of the teachers again in Ledge when our plans are remade unless Kathy’s aware. Brian probably won’t come back either even if he gets better. His fucking son ruins all of our lives. And hell if I know what’s going on with my sick friend right now. For all I know, she’s back in the hospital again or something.

I don’t even have anything fucking cheering me up these days. I fucking hate it. I hate everything I’ve been drawing and GURPS hasn’t given me back any confidence with Remedy. I guess I’m back in the swing of playing him, but it’s not like I’m good at rp anyway. I’m staying patient since it’s only been a few rounds, but I feel fucking out of the loop everywhere. I’d say I’d fucking quit, but I don’t know if I’m back there yet. I just….I don’t fucking know. –; I can’t rp, my characters are boring and I miss feeling like I was in a group. Almost all my mojo buddies move on.

I need something to be better. I don’t even care what. From getting a call and saying Jess is okay again to getting a chance at getting out this year, or even just something fucking small like feeling like I’m not below people or out of sight and out of mind with them; irl or online. I feel the same with both.

I fucking hate my life sometimes. I’d apologize for these constant logass posts with nothing but gloom, but I think like two people read them so okay.

Lol…Plans for today got canceled….actually, two plans! Yeeaa…..Free day at least? Though, the yard work I was supposed to do today, I’m just gonna do tomorrow so at least tomorrow’ll be busy.

I….sort of forgot what I was going to write about….I think I had something….Oh well. Obviously nothing’s changed so all is shit shit and shit. I kind of just feel like tipping over and not moving until needed. Actually, I think I’m gonna do that lol.

Still feeling out of place and…out of it. Got to goof around a little and rp though and we’re doing GURPS tonight so I got something there. I actually killed time the other day and rewatched Battle Royale again which would have been awesome, but I went against the many warnings of Zeph, movie reviews, and the person uploading it to the internet themselves and watched Battle Royale 2…………And when I say it was bad……I’m putting it lightly. Lol yikes, it was a train wreck. Too much excessive blood and gross outs and little care in the actual story. I loved how they were actually tacky enough to blow up buildings and make it look like the twin towers. I knew it was going to be a tasteless movie right from there yet I keeept watching. *snort* I ended up turning it off before it ended to save my love for the first movie since I still love it. Lol, I just can’t believe even the person that UPLOADED it was saying “This movie is awful! Here! You all asked for it!” Speaking of tasteless, I’m kind of tempted to see The Orphan. It’s such a fucking rip-off from the old movie The Bad Seed which is funny. I hated that movie though. I hate sociopath movies. >>; But whatever. This movie doesn’t look any better, but I’m kind of curious to see if it’s as bad as they said it was on TV this morning. Apparently it goes on about adopting children being bad and you can’t love a child if you adopt it and a load of shit that offended a ton of people. Lol, what happened to thought out scripts and good ideas?

Anyway…uh………..wow. Really don’t know what I wanted to talk about. I feel out of it. Gonna make another try to take the year off, tonight. Wish me luck….though I’m nooot sure if anyone actually keeps up to date with me and my journals lol. Well, the government can keep up to date with me as they scan the many odd words in this post. Whatever.

Lol and hey! Now people can’t call me homophobic! I’m all over Hanchen and Ernst. :’/ They’re adorable….well, Ernst is. Hanchen’s a fucking creeper. But together, they’re amazing. Oh the lulz I had making Cait freak out when Hanchen whacks off on stage. I wish they had been in the show more. Either way, I love them. Hanchen’s so….creepy lol. <3; He never smiles except his creeper smirk and everything is said so monotoned. And my favorite of their lines is always going to be Ernst going “I LOVE YOU, HANCHEN! AS I HAVE NEVER LOVED ANYONE!” and Hanchen’s reply, “And so you should.” I should have just posted their big love scene instead of a ramble and shitass drawing lol. Oh well, it cheered me up a little.

Damn, I haven’t been sleeping right lately. My internal clock’s all fucked up. I’ve been having weird dreams too lately. I don’t know…just blah. Nothing’s gotten better and if anything, things keep getting worse. I’m gonna keep trying to get off for the year though. My friend Kathy helped me work things out and told me what I should say to mom. Other shit in general’s been…..eh….I really don’t know. I think I’m finally starting to feel just depressed from it all lol. I wish things would look up a little. I’m fucking freaking out since I still haven’t been given any news on Jess and I feel like I’m not being told everything which keeps making me cry. I’m trying to be patient though. It’s better not to think the worst until I get the full story. Maybe she’ll get better. And as for something less important, I feel so like….I don’t wanna say out of the loop, but I guess that’s it. Just in general. I feel like all my friends are off doing things with each other and I just get to hear about it after. And then I feel like I’m pissing someone off, but I’m confused since I haven’t said two words to them and I haven’t done anything. Eugh…And a lot of movie plans don’t seem to be happening which kind of sucks. I might still get to see HP if Hillary lets me come with her, but something tells me that won’t happen. I’ll probably just end up watching it on TV like the others. Sucks since I actually took the time to get caught up with things. But eh…I’m still gonna see some movies hopefully. I just kind of wish I didn’t find out everyone went without me after making plans with me. They all told me about the movie last night though so it was fun seeing them all get so worked up about everything. And hey, I still have Jason Mraz in about a week. Lol I made a few friends jealous with that since I’m not paying. I’m trying to let the Mraz and Killers concerts keep my spirits a little up since I think that’s the only things going down for me. I thought I was also getting invited to another concert, but that planned changed, but oh well. Two’s nice since it’s not my money.

I went to a party last night for my friend Bre and despite some left out feelings, it was fun and kept me in a good mood for a few hours and I got to talk to Kathy about things. I met a lot of new people too and they were all very entertaining. I spent most of the day hanging out with these two sisters that kept making fun of their family since they’re Vietnamese and kept calling their mom crazy and told me a bunch of funny stories about her side of the family. The older sister was adorable lol. She’s a math major and finds advanced calculus easy and she’s extreeeeemely pretty and bubbly so everyone in her class gets annoyed because she seems like a flake and then gets better grades than all of them. The younger sister kept calling me and her sister old and was…well they acted similar and they both have the appetites of hippos yet they both have perfect bodies. The older once works out and never sits still, but the other one is just…a jerk with a perfect body lol. I know too many people like that. I met some dude…Andy or Tucker…not sure since everyone called him both names…he was cool too. I kept running into him so he’d get right in my face and try to creep me out. But yea, some of the party sucked, but it was mostly just because I felt so left behind since it’s hard to keep up with some of my friends since we don’t see each other often. Got some graduating, some are changing…lol and I guess one of my friends decided to become slutty. Very nice. No names though even if no one knows them.

Either way, the party was nice even if my mood dropped as soon as I went home. I kind of forgot the point of this post, but eh…just rambling, I guess. My specialty. I just hate feeling soooo…yea. Too much shit at once and too much bottling. I’ve been trying not to vent on people though. I got a journal so might as well put it to that use. Bleh, but I just have to wait it out. Something will be good sooner or later. I just wish it was closer to soon. I gave my money away that I had been saving up for my sticker machine since we needed it for more important things and I canceled my order for the original Spring Awakening book. I wanna wait until money’s more steady. Lol I forget if I ever even rambled here about mom changing my book order so that I got the Broadway script instead of the original Spring Awakening book. I got over that though since it was still nice to have and it talked a lot about the original story in the front of the book. I’ll get the original “Spring’s Awakening” some daaaay. Lol I like having the extra knowledge though from just the Broadway book. I got my uncle so bummed out when I told him Moritz’s ghost tried to make Melchior kill himself in the original and that Melchior more raped Wendla than ‘made love’ to her, but I thought it was intertesting since the original story’s so much darker. I admit, I’m glad they changed the sex scene, but lol…I like Moritz even if he did say how happy he was that he offed himself. It seems fitting. But yea, I’ll get it eventually. I like that I know some of the book already. *obsessive*

I’ll write a better post when I fuckin’ remember what I wanted to even talk about.

Lol more Moritz. I can’t seem to finish any real drawings lately so I made a two second one to go with my quick fangirling spew. What’s funny is I actually nailed his hair perfect even if it’s a shitty scribble. *snort* I’m not sure why I never draw his eyes though. I just noticed it.

Hmmm….Eh….Bittersweet. I had an awesome day though so maybe this won’t be a fully negative post. Really don’t know…I’m still pretty down and it’s been hard since I’ve been sucking it up for others that are down, but I still think maybe it’s good since it keeps me from dwelling. I’m not even like….depressed….eugh….I don’t know. Life is just really bad right now. And not “Omg Im so unkool and that boy won’t call me back” bad. Like it really IS bad. I’m getting so sick with worry. And I wish mom would let me take the year off. I have to keep pushing it. This really can’t happen. I know it upsets her, but it can’t. -_-; And she might have to take a break from work because of her foot if it’s what she thinks it is so…mm…

Eh….Well to make sure I get some happy in here, I had an awesome day. I went into Boston to see my Uncle Lou (close friend so I just call him uncle) and his cousin and her son. We went to see Rent and had dinner after and it was just really nice. I was happy to see Rent again since it’s been a few years. I think this was the best cast any of us ever had since my uncle’s seen it a few times and I’ve seen other casts around. And I found out the guy that wrote Rent died right after the dress rehersal of it and never saw it become such a success. That’s really sad…like….I guess he left a mark on the world, but he didn’t even get to see? But anyway, it was awesome. The dude that was in Chess (though I doubt anyone knows that musical) played Roger. He was pretty cool. And the guys that played Tom and Angel were really connected to their characters so i felt more moved this time when Angel died. Rent’s not a favorite and will never compare to Spring Awakening, but it’s pretty awesome. What’s funny is I’ve never understood how it became such a cult musical. Like EVERYONE liked it even if they weren’t into Broadway and then the movie came out. Like, I felt like I was at Rocky Horror Picture Show because of all the screaming and cheering and singing along and people would call out lines as they were said. Lol, it’s pretty cool though. I’ve just always though it was funny since Rent wasn’t as powerful as other shows I’ve seen, but even my own friends were all hyped about the movie when it came out and shit. Lol I know part of the reason is because there’s gay people in it which ALWAYS draws in a young and female crowd and then people like me that see the AIDS awareness….but yea. It’s a good show so I still think it’s cool even if I don’t see what’s so amazing about it as a whole. It’s just cool to me. But hey, I know not a lot of people get what I see so strongly in Spring Awakening and freak out that they fuck or that a girl asks to be beaten in it, but yeeeaaa lol. It was fun and we all had a great time and it was Uncle Lou’s cousin’s first time seeing it. She was all nervous since she doesn’t like stuff bashing God or sexual cracks, but she was okay and her son loved it which I knew he would. His name’s Jay like my…other friend, Jay so that’s uh…confusing, but yea lol. He’s a good kid and is really into Broadway so he’s fun to talk to. He’s a freshmen, but he has an old soul so we get along good. And dinner’s always fun. Lol, dinner in Boston’s the only time I really eat.

I think I’d be more chipper if Uncle Lou didn’t accidentally end the night on a bad note. He didn’t mean to, but he knew he had to tell me and I’m glad he did, but my friend, Jess is really sick and he doesn’t know what’s wrong with her. She used to work with him, but they work in different areas or something now so they just email and he’d send her my love whenever I went a while without seeing her since she’s so busy, but we’ve been friends for a few years now and she’s a lot like me….only…a successful…business lady and shit lol. But we act the same and like the same things. I’d be fine if she was just sick, but apparently it’s really bad. He doesn’t have details, but things don’t look good and she’s too bad to go to work or even take care of her dog and her dog was her fucking baby so that says a lot. She can’t even really be at the computer. He said he’ll try to get details for me since I don’t know how to get in touch with her at the moment, but either way, it’s bad and it’s been upsetting me. He tried to ease it on me, but it’s kind of hard to tell someone that someone they love is not looking so good. Eugh….First Brian’s constant suffering and now this. I just hope she gets better. Young people aren’t supposed to get sick like this. Lol tooootal BS, but I just wish that was the case. I feel like I just talked to her and now she’s sick.

Other shit’s been going on, but….eh….I don’t think I wanna try to out weigh the whole thing with Jess. Shows I could always have it worse. At least I have my health. I just….ugh…..I’m so shitty lately. I want something nice to go on. My usual power source isn’t kicking in since it needs an update and has actually been worrying me lately, but that’s….the dumb little thing I always just say makes me smile even though it’s dumb. I don’t even know. I’m really tired. I don’t feel needy, but I just need some help staying up. I miss talking to people and making up weird ideas. I guess I miss people drawing me things and me drawing stuff back at them too. Lol I’m not saying I want fanart and shit. I’m not even talking about characters and shit specifically. I’m talking about the girls irl that I’d sketch with and how Becca’d draw me orcas and get into these rambles about the sea and then I’d draw her like….sea lions or something….just in general. It’d always cheer me up for a few or longer. And I miss high school really bad right now. I miss having someone around physically. Lol Justin always made my day trying to creep me out while I slept at my desk and my Arbor friends. Tomorrow’s the last day of that fair my classmates were gonna go to so I guess that’s not happening. I WILL get to see Bre tomorrow though and Becca and other Ledge students will probably be there. It’s a graduation party, but it’ll still be nice to just get to see some people.

Lol Loooooong post. The bad weighed out the good very easy. Sorry about that. I hate making emo posts. I’m just so…not okay lol. I’ve been having trouble thinking straight. I fucking dumped a bunch of bird seed into the sink, thinking it was a water dish….And again, I need to keep trying to get off for this year. I really do. I wish I didn’t make her so sad.

Starting to not like this picture as much as when I first made it. Ah well, the body looks okay at least.

gsygsgu

FML

One thing. Let one thing be okay. Really. Nothing’s okay right now. I need something. Dear God, please.

I’m ready to lose it. –;;;;;; I really am. And skipping this year to just go straight to a job really looks good. I can’t handle this and I’m scared as shit.

Lol two posts in one day. Day started kind of shakey, but was okay and now I’m just bitter. After-vacation glow kind of faded fast. Bleh…whatever.

I hope mom stays out all day again today. Really don’t wanna see her right now. I mostly blame her for my buzz kill. ~~;;; I didn’t need to get screamed at for worrying and her logic makes no sense. Ah well…fuck it.

And my hopes of feeling better with the event…didn’t happen lol. Sucked. Or maybe just me. I love feeling exactly the same as when I first joined fRO. Really I do…so so much. Only worse actually, if anything. I don’t know how to talk to people any more and my friends randomly don’t know me any more. And I love getting a bitch snub off when I try to talk to someone to chill myself. Really appreciated that too.

Ugh fuck this day. I want a do-over. And I like that word today. Fuck fuck fuck fuck. Have a fuck day.

Lol <3 I feel like clubbin’ still….while being tired. It’s a mixed thing. ;[ I’ve kind of had my head in the clouds all day and feel a little moody, but more just space and it’s keeping me relaxed despite nothing too interesting going on at the moment and some shit I’m going to have to deal with later. And I’m kind of hoping to make some plans in a few days. I hate how slow things have gotten and mom’s right back to pissing me off.

And I still have to call Danny too and see if he’ll let me work for him. Lulz maybe I’ll get to sleep on people’s lawns! Kidding kidding. But landscaping will be fun.

Friend gave me this meme and said it reminded them of me. It’s like it was made for me! 8[;;;

I Hate This Meme

Fill in the list with things you hate while online. Happy hating!

1.) Lag
2.) Re-res
3.) Weeaboos (not always the same thing as re-res :’/)
4.) Loud pop ups
5.) When my fuckin’ movies won’t load
6.) Certain emotes (Ex. ^_^ ^^ =D or any with = eyes :’3 :’| :’P :’x >x> and other phonyass ones) Edit: Had to fix the smilies lol
7.) When people don’t use any punctuation or caps
8.) One of my favorites to go with #7…when people simply answer with “k”………..
9.) When people take forever to reply to IMs
10.) Getting ditched or dropped in RP….lol or out of RP too, I suppose I could add
11.) Unoriginal characters
12.) Art theft
13.) Just like real life…when people try to be your BFF just because you like the same thing as them 8D…
14.) Ass-kissers and ass-kissees…especially the ones that are my friends I have to stomach >>;
15.) Manga Bullet
16.) DeviantART
17.) When people I hate on FB friend me or leave me harassing emails
18.) Spam
19.) …Certain..people in general
20.) The internet itself lol :[
21.) Fake info
22.) Constant BL BL BL BL
23.) Made up pairings
24.) When **** worships the fucking ground **** walks on and denies it (I feel that’s separate from 14 :[)
25.) Over priced shit on ebay and Amazon
26.) Anything related to BCC
27.) Over priced commission lines
28.) The retards that pretty much worship their own characters lol
29.) Getting treated like a re-re
30.) Humoring
31.) Bullshit
32.) When Rhapsody fucks my shit up
33.) YouTube pop up jokes
34.) Not being able to find shit or finding shit that makes no sense
35.) Coding
36.) Women
37.) Horny men
38.) Creepo old people doing young people things
39.) Shitty games
40.) ROSE
41.) Many RO servers
42.) You :[
43.) The senseless self pitying when the people don’t even bother leaving their computers to try and make their lives better…or try making changes at all and just complain about it lol
44.) Constant Lady Gaga lines sent to me
45.) When people IM me with lyrics
46.) When people end sentences with this thing~
47.) FB Status being lyrics from any damn song
48.) Just getting a “What’s up” IM every time things go quiet
49.) MSN and Trilly
50.) Getting copied

Lol I ran out of list. D: I have another 50 on my mind! Lol, I love how hateful I felt while writing. Ah well that’s it! I’m tired still. <!–3 Gotta go do things.

I love Moritz lol :[ <3

I’m hooooooooome! D8
LOL so much for coming home and getting a good night’s sleep, huh? Early bird gets the worm, motha fucka!

Anyway, I had an awesome time. I almost wanted to cry when it was time to leave, but then Chaz would have technically won which would have been bad. D< But yea, MA is already depressing me LOL. I step outside and it’s freezing. Why can’t we have deadly heat too!? Everything was awesome. I loved everything. Seriously. c___c I’d totally stay there if I could. I got some cool pictures that I wanna upload and a stuffed animal beluga whale that everyone’s calling a giant sperm. QQ I still think it’s adorable. WE WENT TO SEA WORLD! sdkjfhliuyweuyfliuui Dream come true, baby! Damn, everything was so fun. Met all of Mina’s…awesome friends. We’ll call them awesome. They made me lul and I miss them along with everyone/everything else. 8[ AND HEY! I like flying! It wasn’t bad at all. I had so much fun and was like a little kid in the car the whole way. I pointed at every fucking cloud and building all OMGLOOKITTHATRAVEN!!!! But she was a good sport and we were obnoxious all the time. 8D Lol and we sang the Spaghetti Cat song on the way to one of our planes and an older lady walking in front of us turned and knew what we were singing and it was awesome, man. I think the only downer I still have of flying is like….motion sickness. I had to sit in the back seat a lot this week which made me dizzy as shit, but I kept it to myself so no one will know. D<…yea. But flying was cool.

Damn, I’m in such a good mood. I wish we could have stayed longer. QQ And I went to SONIC OMG. Yea, not too amazing, but it’s SONIC, man!!!! Never been to one and now I have! 8D; It’s a fast food place…with no inside to it. Weird. And and and we went to like……zdjkfhjk everywhere! Dx It was so fun! And I saw Star Trek and went to San Antonio! The water walk…thing was kind of lame, but of course, I had a ball and took a lot of pictures. We went to Dick’s and Reven said there’s one in Boston so now I wanna work there LOL. It’s like….a restaurant…where the waiters intentionally treat their customers like shit. As we were walking in, one of the staff glared and said “What the hell do you want?” and closed the door on us! xD It was great. And you get super hats with crude notes on them. Me, Raven and Mina got lovely ones such as “I put more balls on my nose than a circus seal” or something and “My thong has a skid mark” and then the waiter just left Chaz out of pity, but then came back with a hat for him that said “Pimpin’ ain’t easy” on it. The place was so damn awesome. Oh! And they throw napkins and shit at you and don’t care if you throw things at them. xD <3 Jeez, seriously…everything made me happy. Eeeeverythiiiing. D< And I didn’t get any sun burns! How that happened, no one will ever know.

And now I’m home, cold and miss the little yippy dogs and hateful cat. QQ Only Benny really cared that I was home and Stinky is starting to catch on. Mom was fine and then randomly got all emotional on me and bitched and went to bed, but whatever. I won’t stay pissy about that. Honestly, the only bad thing right now? It’s a detail I’m gonna…handle?! That’s right! D< It’s small and may include arguing, but it’s been driving me crazy for a few days now so yea. But it’s still hardly anything. It’s part of the “forever” issue so I’m good. I wish I could go back to Texas right now though. ;___; That house and…state is heaven. KJWDFHIWUluwhfuh Dx!!! I’m too scatter brained to even get into everything! But it was awesome! (if you…haven’t caught on yet)

Things look like they’re gonna mostly stay good too. Thoooouuuugh…..after being informed of a big detail of Transformers…….fuck it. Not gonna see it. >>;;;;;;; Noooot worth it. BUT! Plenty of movies coming up! And I’m gonna see Jason Mraz! Dx FINALLYYYY! *sobsoblove* I’m sosososo excited! I’m going alone though. QQ But it’s Jason Mraz so it’s okay! I’m also gonna go see The Killers with Frank and Raven! Dx More love! There’s some other concerts coming up and I’m hoping to go to some of them. I’m not paying for Mraz or The Killers and have good seats for both so no stress there. ;D Also, Lexi and Phil’s wedding and….other…stuff and….stuff….too much to list! But a lot of fun and I wanna go work for my cousin Danny for the rest of the summer so make an honest buck. >[ And I’m still walkin’ on air about the dumb little thing and it ain’t going away. <3

Lol rambles mean I’m tired……what should I do….?

If you’re not expecting Spring Awakening shit from me by now, you’re retarded. ;[ Lol I drew a whole bunch of Ilse and Moritz as soon as I got home (and adore drawing Moritz’s hair that never makes sense LOL) and I’m only posting a piece of shit since nothing’s done.